Very well written Jennifer, thanks for sharing your insights to spiritual growth, learning and faith. I total relate to what you’re saying, this path to self realization is the true purpose of all religions. The ultimate Zen statement is “only don’t know!” When we give up our silly notions of what we perceive god to be, only then can we be truly open to what God wants to reveal to us. That’s the mystery and magic of life. I really appreciate your sincere and honest posts, thank you. 🙂